Have not been posting much decided to come in and write something





the later thing which im writing out may sound very gay but wadever.. im still writing it out.





Ytd i spend 2hr 15mins reading something which make me very sad and emo, 1 or 2 drops of tears roll down my cheek. In the end i cannot take it got to watch some 3rd eye to recover myself.





i realise she deserve lot more den me. She is so mature den i tot and i this kind of LJ attitude towards life can never make her feel happy. maybe yes happy as a fren to tok cok and cheer her up but seriously a NO if i were to be her other half for the rest of her life.





Damn it, its has been so long since im so seriously doing somethings of cos minus away my work. I neva feel this way before maybe its a wake up call for me? treat things more seriously? lik wad ben told me as well. Is it tat i have been treating thing jokingly and god made my life a joke as well?





OH FUCK IT NO MATTER WAD IT IS..I NEVA FEEL SO BAD BEFORE..mix feeling dunno whether its sad, angry, or self pity? abit of all 3 bah. could not slp last nite, when i close my eye i see her. Im going crazy,so long since i rily sat down and tot about my feeling. i tot i lost my feeling since sec2? Its coming baq to me and I HATE IT. Exam is jus tml and here i am siiting in front of my laptop doing nth.



FUCK y must it be now?